God please guide me, i'm a mess now

I know it's my fault being in love with a jerk like you but when the first time i saw you i didn't know if you're a jerk. so it's not my fault, ryte?
I love him since second grade of Junior High School. At that time, he's so cute and look so innocence. He's funny and kinda smart. But now after i knew him so well, he's more like guy of hell -__- I'm sorry baby.

I'm a mess now and that's because of you okay? God please help me :'(